Oh yes...

It's another thinspo page.

I am not pro ED's. ED's are hell.


Thin, however I'm very much for.


So, once again, the world and Me have made me fat. I have had an eating disorder NOS of sorts for years. Since I was about 10, when I first started skipping meals and exercising passionately. Now, I'm, well, older and FATTER!

I've never been to such a low weight to be labelled anorexic - and that's fine. But I was thin. And that's all I crave.

But there's that wondeful voice in my head that never see's me thin. Hmm.

Quick background: I am pro-thin. I am a self harmer, and starving/purging are both methods of not just control but harm to myself also. I have a *lot* of voices in my head, and these all combined make me mentally ill and depressed. Yay. (Yes...that's sarcasm)

The reason I'm no so overly fat ugly and disgusting now is down to a combination of medication, force feeding from peers and binging as a form of punishment. Not anymore. I'm refusing to take the medication that makes me gain weight anymore, I will not eat when others try and make me and I will not let myself to the voice that wants me to eat.

So, I'm turning to this blogger thing to post my googled thinspo, my hopes, my dreams, my complaints, my successes, my fails etc. As a computer addict I'm much more likely to post here than to write in my diary. If there are other's out there (And I know that you are...) who can help with this, then comment etc.

Once again, I AM NOT PRO-ED's of ANY SORT.

I am PRO-THIN.