BMI

I'm more obsessed with BMI than weight at the moment. I don't know why, I think because height has such a factor on 'ranking' of size I want to know if I'm thin, fat, obese for my height etc.

Anorexic - BMI under 15
Underweight - BMI under 18.5
Normal weight - 18.5 to 25
Overweight - Over 25 to 30
Obese - 30+

http://www.eatwell.gov.uk/healthydiet/healthyweight/bmicalculator/

Anyways, I'm a kilogram off being my first goal BMI. It's no where near where my ultimate goal BMI/weight is, but it's a start that things are going in the right direction.

I had a diet buddy, but they pulled out and are encouraging me to do the same. I *do not* want to stop this, I'm doing a lot better than I have before and I'm feeling mentally better than I have in a long long time.

However, as a binge/purge person, I'm getting cravings to eat and then binge, resulting in purging. Any ideas how to ignore or get past cravings? I have minimilised my diet a lot (probably too much) so the things I'm craving I am NOT allowed.

Insomnia is getting to me at the moment, as I'm so low on energy from lack of calories etc, I'm much more tired. It's annoying as I can't go for my morning jog as I have so much trouble getting out of bed. I'll have to find a good source of caffeine that doesn't exceed my calorie allowance... It takes a lot of coffee to get me awake (And only like it with milk)...

Ah well. Think Thin, am off to make up excuses for not eating...

Before and After

As mentioned, some before after pics. Always show me that thiness can be achieved, even when it seems like it'll never happen!

A really great site for thinspo etc that I've found is The Skinny Site(blogspot) Currently has as the top post some before/after pics if you're interested.

Any problems, leave a comment.

Block one

I reckon these girls are about my size. There's nothing wrong with them, I'm probably fatter. And definitely uglier. Just wanted to re-affirm to myself that I *DO NOT* want to be this size anymore. Or ever again. I want to be thin. I've just reached my first hurdle. I've had my wages so now I know I can afford to buy takeaways and bad foods and food in general. I've fought pretty well today and I think if I get to tomorrow without eating bad food I should have past the first hurdle.

At the moment on my diet/exercise regime, I'm losing 1 kg/2 pounds a day, which is what I'm aiming for.

Just found out that I'm shorter than I thought so my BMI is drastically higher than it was *Sob* It doesn't matter though, it just means I can lose more weight and it won't be a problem!

My first goal is to fit into an old pair of trousers, just to show myself even at that weight (wayyy smaller than now) I'm not happy with myself. I'll be much happier, but I *need* to get down to 7 stone/100 pounds at least. When there if I'm happier, I will try and go back to more food. Otherwise it's 5 stone, or 3.

To be honest, I don't care if I die through this, but just please let me die thin and pretty.

Anyway, enough ramble - Some thinspo! Before and After pics to come next post.


Lindsay And Nicole
Angelina Jolie

(Quod Me Nutrit Me Destruit - What nourishes me destroys me... Love that quote)

Think Thin!

So after...

...a two day fast 'cleansing' ritual to get me used to starving again, I started eating. But! I've only eaten negative calorie foods. Negative calorie foods take more calories to digest than to consume. Everyone who's dieted know that celery burns calories from eating it, but it's also in common fruits and veg! Wicked!

So today I had an apple: 63 calories
2 bowls carrot and onion soup: 100 calories (Shockingly nice!)
1 Bowl of lettuce and onion: 25 calories

(Calories are an estimate, I like to make myself think I've eaten more cals than I have...)

So rounded up, 200 calories - but all NEGATIVE calorie foods. So technically only 30 for the stock in the soup.

So to burn that off, I went for a walk and about to go on another one. Also, I think I'll clean my room, shocking how many calories you can lose in everday tasks! And then I'll have space to try out 'Burpees'.

I'm struggling to drink water though, and need to stay hydrated. I hate diet coke, but I think I'll pop to the shop on my walk and get some thinspo mags and some diet lemonade or flavoured water.

Anyway, enough talking, off walking!

Will post some thinspo later most likely.

Think thin!

Burpee's

So I just read about this fantastic exercise called a 'burpee'. Odd name huh? But they exercise most muscles in the body!

To do:


Or take a look here:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_2cPYR0lRUE

Sound really easy to do and to add to exercise/work outs/warm ups etc.

Update: Just been for 30 min speed walk and have been awake all night so I can sleep through the day and meals. Man, I love being an insomniac...

On that note, I heard to help battle the effects of starving etc, if you take multivitamins it really helps with insomnia. So, yum, more pills. (Getting used to my sarcasm yet?)

Think Thin.

By the way...

I get all my pictures from searches on search engines. Unless I know the model or person, I won't be able to post names etc. Also, if they are pictures of you and disapprove of them being posted, let me know and I'll remove them.

So after a quick search I have some for this post.

(Keira Knightley)

Oh yes...

It's another thinspo page.

I am not pro ED's. ED's are hell.


Thin, however I'm very much for.


So, once again, the world and Me have made me fat. I have had an eating disorder NOS of sorts for years. Since I was about 10, when I first started skipping meals and exercising passionately. Now, I'm, well, older and FATTER!

I've never been to such a low weight to be labelled anorexic - and that's fine. But I was thin. And that's all I crave.

But there's that wondeful voice in my head that never see's me thin. Hmm.

Quick background: I am pro-thin. I am a self harmer, and starving/purging are both methods of not just control but harm to myself also. I have a *lot* of voices in my head, and these all combined make me mentally ill and depressed. Yay. (Yes...that's sarcasm)

The reason I'm no so overly fat ugly and disgusting now is down to a combination of medication, force feeding from peers and binging as a form of punishment. Not anymore. I'm refusing to take the medication that makes me gain weight anymore, I will not eat when others try and make me and I will not let myself to the voice that wants me to eat.

So, I'm turning to this blogger thing to post my googled thinspo, my hopes, my dreams, my complaints, my successes, my fails etc. As a computer addict I'm much more likely to post here than to write in my diary. If there are other's out there (And I know that you are...) who can help with this, then comment etc.

Once again, I AM NOT PRO-ED's of ANY SORT.

I am PRO-THIN.