Lunch

Okay, wasn't happy enough with the scales. Especially as we have a cooked dinner today for lunch as a sit down meal and it's food I like. I swear people know I'm dieting again. Grr. I'm not sure how I coul burn off the dinner, it's really around 1500 calories *Sob* That's bloody ridiculous, I'll put on so much weight. ARGHH! I'll try skipping tea if I can... should be able to. I can do the exercise routine which'll take off 500 ish... still put on weight. Fuck.

Thinspo:

Update again

Okay, so things have been going okay. Am on new meds which don't have the side effect of weight gain but help with weight loss shockingly. Those are helping, I haven't gained at all since them, but also have lost a good bit.
Did shit loads of exercise today because I had to eat yesterday and today with people so worried I gained, though the scales haven't said I have. Plus I can at the moment, so I will.
Can't wait to wake up in the morning and see the scales. If it's bad, I will shoot to kill...

Watched a program about 10 things to do to aid loosing weight. A few were very interesting and I'll incorporate into my 'diet'.

Enough ramble, more thinspo.

Fat face, thin face. Seriously, who prefers the first?



Legs and thighs, yummyily good. Arms also. She's pretty much a stick.

I love seeing prominent bones. Makes me tingle...

Thinspo

I know Lindsay is going through a lot with her breakup etc, but even when 'healthier' she looked amazing. Beautiful in so many ways.

Fearne recently did a program looking into ED's and Pro-Ana mainly. She was horrified to find this picture of her circling as Pro-Ana. To me, yes it is. You are thin, beautiful and you look healthy. That's something I always hope to be.

Clavicles, clavicles, clavicles!

Not as thin as I'd like to be, but she's got ribs, confidence and a bikini. Wow.

Just, wow. Rib hips, rib hips, rib hips!

Major sadness: Skinny Site (Blogspot) Seems to have been deleted or modded away. Really gutting to know that, she was really inspirational. Sorry things were bad for you x

Life is shit, then you die.

Bah, I feel completely shite.

Have been eating WAY too much for around a month due to situations that don't matter. Went away and it was Thincity. Rib bones, hip bones, clavicles, spines just everywhere. I could have died when I saw them.

Finally, Ana's awoken. She is pissed! I had shut her away. I went up about a hundred stone, and decresed down to around where I was when I started to fight over the last few days. Still way too big. Yuuck.

Today was spent in bed, all day. On the upside though, no food at all, maximum of 50 liquid calories and am about to take a packet of 'diet' pills. Am so depressed at the moment that staying in bed is allowed and not noticed so much.

Feel really really sick today, didn't go out to walk (Yeah, I can't run either anymore...) to am even huge-er. I think I should dig out my Ana book again and start serious work.

Hoping to go out in the morning to walk for a good few hours. Then hide in bed and avoid food again.

Will add some thinspo when I can.

Think Thin.