Update

Things are going well, but I know saying that it'll jinx it.

I've found a good exercise for my lower abs which I need most, my upper abs are 'okay'.

My legs are FAAAATTT, more so than most of me. My Butt is the worst, it's mahossive. So I'm on the lookout for a butt workout besides squats, which I just can't seem to do, that works my butt.

Think thin.

Thinspo

Total intake today: 5 diet pills, vitamins, happy pills and some water.

Pretty good I think.

Urgh.

Delays again sorry, suicidal shit going on.

Still fucking fat. But I am losing and my hunger is 100% gone. I've B/P a couple of times lately, just to give me something to do and to hurt myself a bit. My throat is in agony today as I ended up throwing up just the bile? (acidy stuff) in my stomach. But hey, got the food out.
I've run out of diet pills so I'm pissed about that, however tomorrow I should have enough money to go buy some.

I was watching Juno and thought how wonderful Ellen Page looked even when pregnant. But she's naturally quite thin and very pretty so a few pics of her I liked:

Thinspo

ARGH.

It's been a while. Went a bit crazy suicidal and put on new meds which caused me to put on weight. I'm off them now and seriously pissed. I have lost over the weekend enough to put me just a little over what I was before. Yeah, before I started dieting again! Fucking bullshit. Who puts you on tablets that make you a whale?! I'm not having anymore, I'll fucking off myself, it's simpler.

But while I'm here, I'll be dieting. I'm doing weight watchers to try a normal-er diet. Today was fine. I find it hard to track what I eat/don't eat as I'm so forgetful. Today I had 1 less than my recommended intake of points. You have to have a minimum of 14, so I'll aim to just have that in fruit or something.

Will add thinspo soon as I can.

Goth-Emo-Black type thinspo

This answers my question:

I want for gothy-emo-black type thinspo. I tend to favour black, mainly 'cus it's slimming in appearance.

*Blows party whistle*

Okay, so I'm finally down to a safe stone, pound and BMI rank. All good things.

However, the dilemma of the weekend is upon me. I've had lunch already which was an obscene amount of calories. I'd quite like some pizza for tea but that's a million grams of fat, starch, grease and thousands of calories. So I shouldn't. But I have to bring it to my room regardless. Do I eat it? Do I not? Do I have some salad instead? Gah.

Will update some thinspo shortly.

Thin.

ARGHH!

Scales say no weight loss today. I panicked and thought should I give up for a while?

No. I don't want to put all the weight back on, ever again. So I've decided it's a fat day and soon I can do my work out and take double the diet pills and hope for the best. I want to be down the stone rank tomorrow. Plllleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeease let me be!

I've started to notice I'm looking thinner. Only a tiny bit, more toned maybe the word. My arms are much slimmer and my legs. My problem areas are still as fat as ever though :( Though I have been loosing a lot of inches everywhere consistently. I think what happened (I hope) yesterday was that because I did double the workout that some became muscle, which weighs more.

The weekend's going to be really bad. The family like to gorge over the weekend, it's disguisting. It consists of takeaways, pizza's, crisps, chocolate, all BADDDDD foods. They are going to notice when I come downstairs for a salad at tea time... I may stay over my friends house however and may get away with foodlessness.

Thinspo to follow when I'm thinner.

Thinthinthin! x

Thinspo *NSFW*

Just a reminder that I want to be this beautiful:

Woohoo!

I'm a happy fucking fat pig now! No examination of my weight, nor mention that I was fat (Yay!) but not that I was looking thinner or anything.

Bad news is I can't go walking/running at all until next Thursday at the earliest. Boo. But that doesn't stop my other exercises!

Am going to start routine pretty soon and then cycle when parental is out.

Thin! x

2 more!

2 more lbs and I'm down into a 'safe' stone thingy. It's still too high, and not the right weight or BMI but it's a damn good start. Since my re-start I've lost around a stone and a half. Putting it like that makes it sound really good, so I'm glad.

Buuuut. I have the doctors this morning. I'm terrified they want to weigh me or something even though it's unrelated. Urgh, *Panic*.

Will add thinspo if things go well...

Thinthinthin x

2 lbs

Lost another 2 lbs. Still not happy, especially as I'm getting tireder now :( Managing less and less time exercising and loosing more weight so may eat and keep down something later... urgh, the thought makes me feel sick.

Hoping to exercise more. I may double on my vitamins so I have more energy. Hmm.

Anyway, Thinspo.